Recently back from my time in Spain, with some serious time to reflect! My suspicions were confirmed while I spent 3 weeks with these people. It was the best goddamn 3 weeks of my life to date! Even with a missed flight, the impossibility of leaving that day and everything going to shit, I stayed in good spirits as I tried to keep my life in perspective! Thankfully I also ran into Seb and Sofie at the airport and they tried very hard to get me on that plane and tried everything they could do, people I’ve known for maybe a few months being more concerned and caring then some of my oldest “friends”! The moral support and invite out to Copenhagen was an amazing offer I will take them up on sometime!
Thankfully my mom was able to not only arrange another flight, but got it to me completely free and timely due to the unfortunate circumstance at the airport, not too mention she everything else she did for me on the trip!I stayed an extra night in a city close to the airport Sant Boi which was an expensive industrial park to stay in, but beggies cant be choosies! Once I could figure out how to actually turn on the fucking electricity for the place I was set and got some grub and looked around a bit! Not much to see but graffiti and trash, but hey it made me feel at home! =D
Anyways after that whole debacle I got to the airport 3 hours ahead of schedule so I could get groped twice by 2 different security guys, and have my belongings pulled aside and analyzed for bomb making residue, how awesome is that! I wonder what they end up doing with all those bombs they must find on a daily basis! I guess we’ll just NEVER KNOW *shrug*!
On the flight I had the pleasure of sitting beside a girl In which we ignored each other for probably the first 6 hours of the flight, but finally when the 3rd time I turned down the airplane food because I have to eat gluten-free, she inquired further as to why. By the end of the flight we were talking about deforestation, breaking the norms of society and the dystopian future of social media today! All without knowing each others names even! I couldn’t imagine a better conversation to end on. Then reality set in and I had to continue on home and we parted ways! We will meet again I’m sure~!=]
So continuing on to the black hole that is London, my mom informs me about the recent family drama, as we drive through the concrete jungle. The cops were almost called on my family members by other family members, a big blow up and display of dysfunction, FUN! By the end of the night when we were going through photos, I could already realize the ways my personality was shifting towards a little more closed off/protective state because of the family dynamic. Its such a weird thing to experience, especially when its so sudden and you’re yanked out of a daydream (synonymous with reality for once!) and put firmly back on the ground with what you’d normally expect from the family I have! I tried to not let it all get the best of me, and certainly had a moment I thought I was going to cry driving past all the same buildings I’d grown up with all my life and the complete “detachment” from nature in the so called “forest city”!
Pressing on in the coming days, I could hear screaming yelling upstairs, annoying animals, allergies being hit with it all at once like a wall slowly unchecking those “quality of life” boxes as I hid out in my basement! I JUST WANT PEACE, alas it seems an impossibility living amongst these people concerned with all these nothing burgers! We get news from my dad that hes finally had to go to emergency to deal with a surgery he needed YEARS ago…only to find out later that hes failed to schedule with the surgeons….. FFS….and then the DAY after that one of the cats dies. I don’t own any pets , I rarely ever have in my life for various reasons, death being one of them! Guess who ends up burying a dead cat, the guy with the least amount of connection to them! =] This was to help out my mom mostly but now I’M traumatized because of someone else’s decision to keep these things?? I literally didn’t sign up for this shit! lmao….but seriously R.I.P. Stripes =[
Anyways I can feel my energy levels dropping, the non-motivation to want to get out of bed and what I can only describe as depression slowly setting back in as the people I care to spend my time with are all separated once again, until we can figure out the next moves and what not! However something that is different. I’m able to deal with all this much more effectively, and in terms of LIFE motivation I’m 1000% ready to GO and contribute to trade-free. You’ll hopefully hear more and more about it in the coming weeks as we start planning and releasing even more trade free things / services! But for the most recent addition Trom-Jaro the linux based trade-free OS has officially been released!
Until I see you all again you will live on in the UNGODLY & GLORIOUS amount of footage I saved from the trip! =D
I went swimming in the ocean, as one does, equipped with my GLASSES for some reason and the waves soon ripped them from my face! Spent a good while trying to find them along with small sashas’ superb diving skills to no avail! They are lost to the ocean to become a decoration in some coral reefs or perhaps landing on a Galapagos tortoise somewhere in the the giant ecosystem that is our oceans!
But no worries to me…..what a strange concept. I lost $400 for my prescription, transition anti glare coated glasses, yet my reaction was not a sinking stomach or a “what am I going to do now?” it was more akin to just accepting what happened, and MAYBE learning from my mistakes! I was un-phased (at least until the stars came out and they all became blurry AF, but that is beside the point!)
Having these people help me look for them, the fantastic company, the great ideas we are evolving and sharing left me with such positive things to think about and directions to steer my life in, a feeling of my life feeling “full” left almost no room to be anxious or worry about such silly things! A concept I perhaps would have struggled to even understand even a few months ago!
This Idea has manifested itself in other things I can notice about myself, albeit small. I can think maybe randomly getting injured at home or a minor cut or something, the amount of stress and attention I might give cleaning it bandaging it etcetc. it would almost exacerbate the problem and perhaps even make it worse devoting such resources and fearing the worst outcome. This is not to say that suddenly if your leg was no longer attached to your body that you should just “hakunama tata” and not immediately get some medical assistance, but that in the minor capacity I could be injured at home, seemed more big a deal then the actual injuries I received being here! Running through brush, taking some chances and really living, and that I cannot be bothered by some minor cuts and bruises so long as I am not further damaging my body, and the attention those injuries receive, is maybe a coincidental anti septic dip in the hella salty ocean!
An incredibly freeing feeling to not have to worry about such mundane things. To have a life full of excitement, people and wonder that these minor inconveniences, which used to be the mountains I would hike through, has allowed me to grown and see them for the insignificant minor deviations in a nano-scaled landscape they are. Where these things have lost their relevance for my new world and outlook on life…..BESIDES, I found a new accessory to strap to my face! =]
So much has happened! Ive learned to back-flip from tio within 5 minutes, something i was scared to do my whole life! Made some incredible connections with people. Earned a “Schnekel” for finding some locals playing pokemon go! swam in the ocean, flown a drone and saw the moon through a telescope for the first time in over 20+ years……life is fucking GOOD my friends!
Dima and Mara had to leave today to continue pumping out the awesome to the masses, but that did not stop them from performing a mini concert for us, I’ve never had the pleasure of hearing such talented musicians, so close you could touch! haha got some great incredible footage. Combined with Dimas incredible ability to learn and improvise and Maras’ EXTREEEEME vocal range, going from the deepest of screams to the most soothing melodies, Ive never heard it equaled. What a fucking gift for the mind to experience! SO much more but now were off once again, who knows what other crazy adventures and people await! :]
we moved to the villa yesterday as we had a number of more people join us! Including some fucking awesome metalheads from the band MARA! I have never met such a variety of people coming together for a similar cause, spanning multiple generations even! What could be achieved with such efficiency, understanding and vision!?….we will find out over the course of the coming weeks! 🙂
Everyone is reaching this breaking point in there lives of something horribly gone wrong. At a time we are all so connected, we have never been so distant from one another. Apps that turn us into disposable humans. Where our time on this planet is mocked and plagued by advertising worldwide. False, empty and immoral values have been channeled into our society through governments, religious institutions, and now corporations. Politicians trying to fix the system, and fight for their version of justice. Even the ones who promise to stay true and moral are met with resistance, bureaucracy and ultimately fail because of the natural inclination towards corruption in a society that requires you to have money, to LIVE. A system you were born and raised into without question, that is until maybe you’ve reached a point in your life where you are “aware of your awareness”… kinda scary to think about. Some may even have anxiety reading these very words and that’s ok. There is something to be said about everyone starting with an equal opportunity in that, even when that is the case, that does not mean equality of outcome. We have all played monopoly, and seen how quickly attitudes and finances change. Different people with different lives, rolling the dice everyday, some literally in the form of the lottery, a regressive tax upon the poor, in a system that measures and values profits, not humans. These winners/tyrants/CEO’s of monopoly are not inherently bad people, they are just maximizing what this system rewards, and at varying cost’s to the human condition and it’s environment.
It is the environment that permits and promotes these behaviors. Humans have constructed the artificial systems of imagination, that we all “know” and run by today. Money has no real value, it has a value because, we think it does. The gold standard is long gone. Fractional reserve banking allows for “debt” to be created from nothing, built within the system of capitalism which requires infinite growth. That is not achievable on a finite planet, and at the rate of corruption we see today (think derivatives trading AKA the 2008 collapse of the economy, this is a feature not a bug.) These collapses will only continue to be more devastating, not for bankers, or elites but for the common person. We are starting to see the cracks not only in our physical infrastructure, but in the very philosophical foundations on which we built upon this earth. New consciousness is rising, and trying to be stomped out from those at the top who the system benefits. Only so long can people be silenced, more and more are affected and awakened everyday. We have more than enough resources, compassion, land, clean water and air for all the inhabitants of this planet, IF we can work together and organize ourselves intelligently.
Imagine a system in which we do not innovate through parallel competition, but collaboration and freedom of information! Resources and effort are no longer restricted by “money” and are used at maximum efficiency! Most importantly Human life and it’s environment are respected and valued for what they allow… our very brief existence in this cosmos. Why should we struggle and suffer needlessly everyday, because of “tradition”? Because “that’s the way it’s always been?”. There are improvements and lasting solutions we can make…… so long as….
TRADE is ELIMINATED! Many have claimed money as the “root of all evil”, but even that can be taken a step further… You can discover what a TRADE-FREE society might look like and a lot more @ tromsite.com
This project is really excited me, so ambitious yet progression is being made! This week they’ve launched the ability to stake tubes for greater rewards as well as launched an open sourced file sharing protocol called airshare based on the webtorrent portocol! All very exciting things I KNOW! =]
Another update my claim on fling cast 2 was denied and the video pulled from youtube. no strike this time but the flaws of the system are all there. man on stage waves hands is now enough to claim copyright and pull an entire video from site, regardless of how relevant the content. Humanity will be pushed to it’s breaking point when even it’s basic impulses like sharing, are denied.
working on moving a bunhc of my computer stuff over to linux as the time is no better than now! I am absolutley delighted to be doing fling-cast and of course theres some imprtant topics this week like the mueller report! holy FUCK lol Anyways, MCC wil continue as wil the other stuff and Spain in less than 2 weeks! Lifes getting CRAY! =D