So YEA, I started a new channel, which began as my own personal experiment in guitar learning efficiency, I quickly realized if it works for me, it can work for everyone, fuck it lets share it! I have been uploading like a madman and trying to edit metadata, and record the videos and the this and the that! Everything was going great untill yesterday I got 2 back to back copyright strikes and am actually surprised i made it another 24 hours without a 3rd! Regardless Either the channel has to not sustain another strike before feb, or byebye birdy!
The channels also receiving a lot of traffic, and Im sure the growth will only continue on its ridiculous trajectory if I could keep up with my 30+ uploads a day, however I dont want to just step on another copyright landmine and lose it all so, DILEMMA! So my temporary solution is to decentralize to facebook,d.tube,and bittubers and hopefully that can stay alive long enough to enact….THE FINAL SOLUTION…..Im still working out the details though=D
Other than that things are looking up! Started a discussion group and more and more people are showing interest! Our last meeting ended up with a +1 from the place we met at, who actually worked there and chatted with us on their break, was so interesting to watch it unfold and hear their ideas! We also did another trom-cast, this time on conspiracy theories which you can check out here! Fuck I miss you guys! =]
Hey guys! I’m still alive! Been thinking a lot lately, probably a bit too much tbh! I am only now coming to a point in my life where I really see the benefit of having my own place away from my parents/family. The irony being im growing up in the time when more people then ever are being forced to move back home with their parents, not only because we got shit wages that havent gone up with inflation and has effectively robbed every generation after the gold standard was removed. But also the good jobs where you could just work somewhere for 40-50 years, check out with a sweet pension, those jobs are almost non existent due to the forces of capitalism and milking every cent. Anyways, I’ve kinda just been trying to take it easy, learn some new things and survive in my current situation!
I guess I make it sound pretty dramatic for a white guy living in his parents basement, its not even so much that, but i am effectively blocked from what I want to do in life,which is contribute fully to the idea of trade-free! Yes I can do that from canada in limited ways, but id be much more effective working closely and living together with people of a similar outlook on life. Dealing with people everyday, and hearing their problems, there going out to the bar again this weekend, working all week….its just uninteresting, not that you cant have a good time doing that but thats the loop these people seem to be stuck on since highschool. Surely theres other things we could do, hell other less destructive drugs we could really use to gain some connections, howabout a night out at a “trip bar” where you could just drop some mushrooms with some randoms haha jk but alcohol is honestly gotta be one of the most destructive drugs out there because aint NOONE drinking in moderation, the whole IDEA is to get fucked up!
I am definitely not a straight edge but my binge drinking days are behind me, but I derive my fun in other ways like video games with friends or being more introverted I do appreciate my alone time! Though with my massive downshift in my friend circle and romantic partner this year I am down to about 2 people I can confide in locally. Everyone just seems to be in their own little bubble, I mean im used to this as im not huge on social things, but even i am detecting that almost everyones attitude/time is shifting to this very I want to say “selfish” mode, where its you and whatever the fuck youre doing on your phone, games, social media, looking for a disposable human…. the world feels very hollow haha one might call it ” The emptiness”! Shoutout to neverending story 2! =] But is a very stong symptom of a society in pain.
I am also noticing recently that mentally I am struggling with thinking or NOT thinking obsessively over the same awful thoughts. But I’ve also noticed something…. these repeating thoughts that give me bad feelings, or make me sad whatever you want to call it…..they pretty much only come when im sitting in my room, doing nothing, unstimulated….emptiness again. I was talking to tio about this and we both agree when a persons life is FULL, when you have freinds, and love, happiness and a social circle you belong to, fuck you may as well label me immortal, because the feeling is nothing can slow you down! I know what its like to sleep 10-12-16 hours a day, still be tired, unable to sleep but have 0 motivation to get up, hell thats been lately. But I also know what it’s like to look forward to waking up, or being so excited you CANT sleep, or fucking being up for 14 hours till 2 in the morning, START DRINKING, go out for a night on the town in spain and come home at 6am where you realize you have no fucking idea how to unlock this goddamn villa door, so fuck it you sleep on the grass…..10 minutes later I just bug yoav to let me in, so he did, thx hero, go to bed and get up 4 hours later to hike 20KM to and from the castle….. thats a night and day difference between living at home and being around the most amazing people I’ve had the pleasure of meeting. However I know those feelings of good times have all but faded, even though it was only a few short months ago. I remember that I was happy, but I cant feel that happiness again, theres no recall of that comforting emotion and thoughts like while i was over there “this is it”.
These things like depression, mental illness are poorly understood and defined, of course we’ve basically just begun these studies but i am now sorry I used these labels on people, even if I meant no harm because there was harm. My last girlfriend had some problems. I also had a problem, where I was trying to label and fix all of her problems because I thought “she has these symptoms, she must be this or this” knowing full well not only am I not a doctor but im suffering from some of this shit myself. there are things we can say about “depression” sure, but I dont think the average person understand really whats happening. I think back to a time before I knew that I had a panic attack at 27. I’ve been dealing with so much anxiety my whole life, I can now look back and see all the various coping behaviors I didnt realize I was even doing and then having your heart race, you start to sweat and waves of dread wash over you, I didnt know what was happening, one moment i was playing a video game the next I literally was fearing for my life because I thought I had cancer, and let me tell you once you start winding up, good luck stopping it. To have someone to describe a panic attack or anxiety to me, I think would leave me with no real understanding….but to go through it and FEEL IT and know the thoughts and the runaway ideas, the hyper-reality….o man it gets me charged up just to think about it….. now im not saying everyone should go out and have panic attacks….or hell maybe I am, because I sure as shit know I appreciated what the people suffering around me were telling me through all these years, I finally UNDERSTOOD.
Anyways its been a long few weeks, i want to do more with this website just organize it and clean it up a bit, kinda plan out the sections I want… anyways other than that I got a new studio setup spent under 100$ and got a mic arm some good white lighting and a green screen! so look forward to hopefully some creative content coming for that! very chaotic thoughts reading over my posts a perfect representation of how my life feels right now!
Todays a kinda get some braindead stuff done, going to repost/update some old content spread to platforms like Dtube and make some noise! nothing too exciting, still waiting on that trade free juicy news! Hopefully we’ll have our tromcasts back online soon, miss all those guys and ive only been gone 2 weeks FFS lmao. It’s going to be a long couple months without those incredible people but worth the temporary wait!
Heres the channel Ill be posting to, hoepfully ill be able to organize my site a bit better and figure out this picture posting thing. Theres so much I want to share but the way the internets structured either it becomes someone elses property or it can be sold. I want neither of these thigns and want my pics/footage to be available to anyone trade free! I have some Ideas on how to do that but will take some testing and know how! Stay tuned theres excitement to come=]
I went swimming in the ocean, as one does, equipped with my GLASSES for some reason and the waves soon ripped them from my face! Spent a good while trying to find them along with small sashas’ superb diving skills to no avail! They are lost to the ocean to become a decoration in some coral reefs or perhaps landing on a Galapagos tortoise somewhere in the the giant ecosystem that is our oceans!
But no worries to me…..what a strange concept. I lost $400 for my prescription, transition anti glare coated glasses, yet my reaction was not a sinking stomach or a “what am I going to do now?” it was more akin to just accepting what happened, and MAYBE learning from my mistakes! I was un-phased (at least until the stars came out and they all became blurry AF, but that is beside the point!)
Having these people help me look for them, the fantastic company, the great ideas we are evolving and sharing left me with such positive things to think about and directions to steer my life in, a feeling of my life feeling “full” left almost no room to be anxious or worry about such silly things! A concept I perhaps would have struggled to even understand even a few months ago!
This Idea has manifested itself in other things I can notice about myself, albeit small. I can think maybe randomly getting injured at home or a minor cut or something, the amount of stress and attention I might give cleaning it bandaging it etcetc. it would almost exacerbate the problem and perhaps even make it worse devoting such resources and fearing the worst outcome. This is not to say that suddenly if your leg was no longer attached to your body that you should just “hakunama tata” and not immediately get some medical assistance, but that in the minor capacity I could be injured at home, seemed more big a deal then the actual injuries I received being here! Running through brush, taking some chances and really living, and that I cannot be bothered by some minor cuts and bruises so long as I am not further damaging my body, and the attention those injuries receive, is maybe a coincidental anti septic dip in the hella salty ocean!
An incredibly freeing feeling to not have to worry about such mundane things. To have a life full of excitement, people and wonder that these minor inconveniences, which used to be the mountains I would hike through, has allowed me to grown and see them for the insignificant minor deviations in a nano-scaled landscape they are. Where these things have lost their relevance for my new world and outlook on life…..BESIDES, I found a new accessory to strap to my face! =]
Everyone is reaching this breaking point in there lives of something horribly gone wrong. At a time we are all so connected, we have never been so distant from one another. Apps that turn us into disposable humans. Where our time on this planet is mocked and plagued by advertising worldwide. False, empty and immoral values have been channeled into our society through governments, religious institutions, and now corporations. Politicians trying to fix the system, and fight for their version of justice. Even the ones who promise to stay true and moral are met with resistance, bureaucracy and ultimately fail because of the natural inclination towards corruption in a society that requires you to have money, to LIVE. A system you were born and raised into without question, that is until maybe you’ve reached a point in your life where you are “aware of your awareness”… kinda scary to think about. Some may even have anxiety reading these very words and that’s ok. There is something to be said about everyone starting with an equal opportunity in that, even when that is the case, that does not mean equality of outcome. We have all played monopoly, and seen how quickly attitudes and finances change. Different people with different lives, rolling the dice everyday, some literally in the form of the lottery, a regressive tax upon the poor, in a system that measures and values profits, not humans. These winners/tyrants/CEO’s of monopoly are not inherently bad people, they are just maximizing what this system rewards, and at varying cost’s to the human condition and it’s environment.
It is the environment that permits and promotes these behaviors. Humans have constructed the artificial systems of imagination, that we all “know” and run by today. Money has no real value, it has a value because, we think it does. The gold standard is long gone. Fractional reserve banking allows for “debt” to be created from nothing, built within the system of capitalism which requires infinite growth. That is not achievable on a finite planet, and at the rate of corruption we see today (think derivatives trading AKA the 2008 collapse of the economy, this is a feature not a bug.) These collapses will only continue to be more devastating, not for bankers, or elites but for the common person. We are starting to see the cracks not only in our physical infrastructure, but in the very philosophical foundations on which we built upon this earth. New consciousness is rising, and trying to be stomped out from those at the top who the system benefits. Only so long can people be silenced, more and more are affected and awakened everyday. We have more than enough resources, compassion, land, clean water and air for all the inhabitants of this planet, IF we can work together and organize ourselves intelligently.
Imagine a system in which we do not innovate through parallel competition, but collaboration and freedom of information! Resources and effort are no longer restricted by “money” and are used at maximum efficiency! Most importantly Human life and it’s environment are respected and valued for what they allow… our very brief existence in this cosmos. Why should we struggle and suffer needlessly everyday, because of “tradition”? Because “that’s the way it’s always been?”. There are improvements and lasting solutions we can make…… so long as….
TRADE is ELIMINATED! Many have claimed money as the “root of all evil”, but even that can be taken a step further… You can discover what a TRADE-FREE society might look like and a lot more @ tromsite.com
This project is really excited me, so ambitious yet progression is being made! This week they’ve launched the ability to stake tubes for greater rewards as well as launched an open sourced file sharing protocol called airshare based on the webtorrent portocol! All very exciting things I KNOW! =]
Another update my claim on fling cast 2 was denied and the video pulled from youtube. no strike this time but the flaws of the system are all there. man on stage waves hands is now enough to claim copyright and pull an entire video from site, regardless of how relevant the content. Humanity will be pushed to it’s breaking point when even it’s basic impulses like sharing, are denied.
working on moving a bunhc of my computer stuff over to linux as the time is no better than now! I am absolutley delighted to be doing fling-cast and of course theres some imprtant topics this week like the mueller report! holy FUCK lol Anyways, MCC wil continue as wil the other stuff and Spain in less than 2 weeks! Lifes getting CRAY! =D